Monday 8 December 2008

Soft, Sunlit Memories


Stumbling over green clumps of soft earth.

Two little girls run against the currents of a gushing wind, that hurls itself across the hills and valleys, scoring tracks in the long meadow grass.
Red cheeks like apples shining in the sun of a girl's soft smile.
Eye's filled with wonder and expectation glance up at a sky worn to cloudy rags with the day's cares and traces of tears that can't be explained.
The glinting of light through naked branches and skeleton leaves.
Bleaches out the damp bruises of ruminating clouds.
Perched upon the mossy gate.

The dreams of children reach beyond a gaze in the distance.


The branches of trees grasp the fading light.
And turn to charcoal in it's cool fire.

Long grasses pick up the whispers of the wind.
A song without words

Saturday 22 November 2008

Pieces of an Autumn Day...















As the brittle and stark days of winter leave trees bare against granite skies.

Emmy captures the last blinking glimpses, lingering gazes and fading traces of Autumntime.

Here is our day through her eyes.

With the pictures she found.


A sycamore leaf surfaces from the birdbath.



















Early morning shivers, blue and crisp as any day in early spring might.

Clouds rustle against the trembling edges of emerald green Bay leaves.

























Details, flutter, pause, wonder, glint.

Unassumingly.

Washing the days in their own colours.

Defining the hours, with their own outlines.
















As afternoon wanes, birds chirrup amongst the naked branches of a sycamore tree.









As the pieces of our day scatter gently to the earth like the last of the Autumn leaves. ~

Tuesday 28 October 2008

Resolving to Rest




One of my biggest new year resolutions is to rest more.

I need to create spaces of stillness, where thoughts can breathe and move and sing

Spaces where dreams can wade out into expansive sunsets and dreams can go bare back riding across breaking shorelines.


 
Within our culture at large there is a tendency to connect rest with laziness.

I believe that this assumption is harmful and damaging to the spirit of life itself.

Nobody wants to be considered lazy.

So we make sure no one can ever accuse us of this by overworking.

Conversely, we may succumb to periods of resigned inadequacy and stagnation.

Instead of flowing over the rocks we get stuck between a rock and a hard place, paralyzed into procrastination.


Rest is like a soul anchor
 
Without it we drift far from our natural course and can become washed up and ship wrecked.

Over working can disconnect us from our true drives, desires and truths.

We forget how to figuratively "swim" even though "swimming" is part of our core DNA.

Eventually we drown in the business of endless days washing wave upon overwhelming wave over us.





But what drives the negativity surrounding unsanctioned rest and relaxation?

It is easy to see what profits most from the work hard play hard rule; Industry.

Industry is served best by the idea that rest is a luxury.

Standards have been driven so high and margins so thin that we almost believe that we can't survive or thrive under the premise of a restful life.

Yet rest is not something that we can do without.

Even in the most primitive of tribes much time and consideration is given to rest.

Many of these cultures live hand to mouth, yet adequate time allotted for spiritual, emotional and mental recuperation is prioritized.

In fact spiritual preparation is often considered essential to the undertaking of even the simplest and most Basic of active tasks.

Our modern life, though highly ordered is also highly mechanized and industrialized.

The work ethic of the factory and the pace of the marketplace has created a design that we as humans feel compelled to replicate and integrate in our own behaviors.


But we are not machines.

We are not physical shells with no other purpose than to be productive, fuel efficient, economically sound and functional.


In the first sequence of a wonderful film called Baraka, there is the scene of a monkey sitting in a hot spring.

He seems to be meditating.

 Certainly he is taking incredible pleasure from the warm, steaming pool he is submerged in.

His eyes show one at peace, at one with the simple abundance of natures gifts.




The standards of attainment, perfect and acceptability are driven by an industry where the motto has always been "time equals money".   

But in reality time is a gift that is beyond price.

That perfect lifestyle, physical appearance or worldly achievement are always just that tantalizing millimeter beyond touch.

So we run the treadmill of fear and we don't rest.


Except I resolve to rest
.

I'll put the fear aside.

Making rest a priority means I must maintain the boundaries that preserve it as an indispensable part of daily life.

Lack of peace and rest only bind me to the mental "chasing's after the wind" that feed the insatiable production line life while staving the soul of nourishment.

The dissatisfaction this perpetuates in not conducive to a compassionate life.






Monday 2 June 2008

Change {5 minute friday & Imperfect Prose}

Five Minute Friday



Joining Lisa Jo and Emily today for 5 minute Friday, where you write without editing or backtracking, in a 5 minute stream of consciousness that could go anywhere .

Word for today...

Change...Go...

Trembling  in front of the mirror, on my sixteenth birthday, I cut all my long blond hair off. 
Later, with a pounding heart I watched the pink and black dye rinse down the drain.
Yet, somehow I didn't feel the smallest pang for those childish blond curls the piled upon the bath rug.

Those blond curls were the vulnerable girl, the shy, quiet girl that had let herself be hurt. They had to go. 
Be cut off, shrouded in the colours of a symbolic death.

It was like clutching hold of the sharp edged stone of my childhood and throwing it into the deepest of water.
A place from which it could never be mined.

I wanted to change my life and somehow thought that meant starting from the outside in.

16 years on and my roots have slowly grown on back through, and my truth with them.

I have come to see the truth in myself, and others, however vulnerable that might be, as the only way to live in this world. 

I can't change for anyone else anymore, I can't even change to protect myself anymore. 

I have to be who I am and live it out. 

Though change still happens.
 it now expands from the inside out,
rather than retreating from the outside in.

Like ripples in a lake or rings within the trunk of a tree. 
The finger marks in a piece of wet clay turning upon the wheel;
Layer after layer somehow grows bigger, more out of me.

Encompassing more and more of life in all it's complexity, sorrow, sacredness and beauty,