"We dare not try to fill our souls and minds with numbing addictions, diversionary tactics, or mindless distractions. The shape of evil is much more superficiality and blindness then the usually listed "hot sins." God hides, and is found, precisely in the depths of everything, even and maybe especially in the deep fathoming of our fallings and failures. Sin is to stay on the surface of even holy things, like Bible, sacrament, or church."
Falling Upward: A Spirituality for the Two Halves of Life.
It is not the perfect image, vision or, ideal that must come to fruition.
It is my love.
I have come to learn love grows when I come up against my own limitations.
In the vulnerability of my nakedness. My shortcomings.
Because when I'm shivering cold, in the storms of my own making, He comes to cover me with a blanket.
Then I can bring it to cover another.
In this the paradox of "not enough" becomes that which "runneth over".
Because it is in the stretching out and loving through imperfections, both my own and those of others that I meet God.
This is the ground on which He works and breathes. Working nutrient into rough, hard clay.
Clay that can only be molded into something water tight, with the free flowing water of love itself.