Wednesday, 16 May 2012

My Birthday Girl

fi flying.

My little bird.


You are the most emotionally honest person I know.
If you think it, you'll say it.
If you feel it, you'll holler it.


I want to be as fearless and open as you, girl of the kiss curls and the pixie eyes.
Oh what thoughts swim in those unfathomable waters?

pirate fi


When we were sowing our Spring greens you dug up my viola's with a kind of earnest care.
Then you lovingly replanted the bindweed I'd spent a morning grappling with.

You said it was your special plant.

The plant with the pure white shell flowers that could almost, almost be mistaken for lilies and the strong, fibrous, unyielding roots.

Seraphina in Black and White

You spend most of your days happily playing in the garden or painting your hands.

You know you were born almost 10 pounds and Eskimo-like.
I met my own reflection within your beautiful brown eyes that day.
There was something sacred in their deep pools.

High cheek boned, heart shaped faced, beauty.
I stared at you in wonder for hours into the dark, murmuring quiet of that mid-May night.

The day Daddy and I came home from the hospital , fish and chips wrapped tight under one arm your car seat hooked on the other, Matilda stared, wide eyes swimming across your little face for hours.
She wouldn't leave your side.
She would try to stroke your soft velveteen forehead and press her cheek close to yours to feel your warmth.




I had know idea what incredible, sacred, elemental lessons you would teach me.
I had no idea that you would break my delicate porcelain life apart and remould it into something, truer, more useful, more authentic and indeed, more beautiful.



me and fi

You make me thankful for every small precious act of kindness, every shard of reflected light, every swilled rainbow in every muddy puddle.




My lovely girl today, you were five.

Seraphina, I hope you will always fly free.

fi lilac


  1. happy birthday to your little one...and isnt it cool how our kids do that...rattling off our rough kids have been such a blessing my life...some great pics too...

  2. Oh to be like a child...birthday blessings to your daughter!

  3. What wonderful words!!! Happy Birthday to your daughter.

  4. It's wonderful to hear that a small child has taught you to stop judging others. That is so very touching. Hope your little girl has a magical birthday.

  5. happy birthday miss wormie! :) five is a great age to be.

  6. oh suzy this is so so beautiful. i can't stand it. your words to your girl are priceless. oh yes, how they teach us. oh yes.

  7. What a dear dear blessing your big 5 year old certainly has been - beautiful words as ever Suzy x.

  8. She is just adorable - and your words are so beautifully heartfelt. Thank you for sharing. xx

  9. Such inspired reflections. Happy 5! Five is big.

  10. Happy Birthday adorable one!

    You are blessed beyond measure aren't you? I can feel it in your words. I hope you find the other worms though, but I'm glad you've taken up coffee. It seems that you need it :)

  11. Beautiful pics and Happy Birthday to your girl! I want one of those pirate ships. Do they come in extra large? :)

  12. an exquisite tribute. highlighting this one today friend. xo

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  14. my last comment published when it was i'll try again!

    i loved the way you describe Seraphina--it reminds me of my son. And your words helped me to see beauty and goodness in aspects of his personality that, as you said, can push me to the end of myself. Thank you.


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