Sadly, at a routine 14 week OB appointment our consultant could not find our baby's heartbeat.
A scan confirmed that our little one had died.
It was only over the weekend I had my first dream of the baby where I felt her tell me that she was a little girl.
I truly believe that she gave us this gift before she left us so that we would always know her and so that we would be able to name her.
We had chosen the name Eliyana Shalom for a girl which means God Answers Peace.
We have peace in knowing that she rests saftley in Our Heavenly Father's arms. Just seeing her in Jesus's arms, in my heart, has given so much comfort.
I feel very empty and a little lost and very sad yet I know how very blessed we already are to have the beautiful girls we have.
God knows His ways and they are right and good and I know how lucky I am to be able to have my faith.
I'll be taking a couple of weeks break from the blog though. Just a little time, to cry, pray and heal.