Last October, I became ill and then I became ill again... One infection and/or illness after another.
It felt as if my body was breaking down. By April I was almost completely disabled. I was so ill I couldn't move out of bed.
I had adrenal fatigue, low iron levels and a low white blood cell count.
I went into a very deep meditation during this time. I felt like a thousand birds were flying out of my body and time slowed right down.
For the last 3 months I've not had any alcohol, caffeine and hardly any sugar. I could only eat and drink liquids for the first week or so, so my body went through I kind of detox by default.
I have cut out 3/4 of my intake of wheat and starch. Not to follow any specific diet. My body has just become very sensitive and my intuition has become very focused. My body seems to be telling me very explicitly what it needs and what is harmful to it.
I don't have the same energy as I did before. However, I think much of the energy I've had over the past few years has been false energy, built on stress, adrenaline and coffee.
I am not accomplishing much at the moment. I'm not being productive.
It is hard to see things pile up and not necessarily fix them straight away.
I have been allowing myself time to heal. I've followed the prompts of my soul and my body, I've gardened, sat down with a book for an afternoon, gone for walks with my dog, written with paper and pencil, knitted simple hats and prayed.
Both my parents are elderly and in need of extra help and support which I can't give until my immunity improves. Emmy is now at college full time and working part time so I've lost the company of a dear friend and kind helper during the day. So with a heavy heart and actual tears as I write this I have found a beautiful village school for the children to go to. The school is affiliated with a local forest school, has an eco garden, frog pond and clay oven for bread baking. It really couldn't be any closer to a Steiner school except being a state school it's within our budget :)
As this blog mainly focuses on homeschooling I have been in a quandary about whether to continue writing here or not.
Would my readers be interested in posts about health, wellness, poetry, philosophy, gardening, knitting and basically a whole bunch of randomness fresh from my head as well as the usual fare of natural play, learning, parenting etc...?
Please feel free to comment and let me now. I welcome your words!
I am sure many of you will feel upset about the changes. I am still an advocate of homeschooling and will always believe in natural, community and family based learning for children.
Sadly, I have no family of my own and Tani's family are miles away in Albania so there is little to no immediate support for us as I navigate my way back to health and healing which is the main reason why we've decided that we can't homeschool for the time being.
Although we have some wonderful homeschooling friends they are dispersed and we can only meet up (realistically) once a week at most.
I yearn for a tribe of families, elders, babies, little ones, teens to live with and learn from. I yearn to pop my head out of the front door and ask to borrow a bottle of milk or a sprig of bay and in turn trade and/ or share experience and expertise with others who seek a more soulful and sustainable path.
I have always hoped to provide a comfy spot for those who stop by this nook on the great interwebs! I have certainly connected with some beautiful souls over the years. I hope to continue to do so, as our family's journey winds it's way along another moss strewn, fern filled path.
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Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.…Proverbs 3:5
Unless the LORD builds the house, the builders labor in vain.